You were always on my mind...

So lately, I've been waking up at what I thought was 4 am... turns out it's more like 3 am... hmm could this be why I'm so tired?  Of course, like most moms, I go to bed with a list of things on my mind, wake up with another list in the morning.  The new twist is the waking up in the middle of the night with a new, sometimes relevant, issue on my mind.  Last night, it was... does Jackson Coffee have some kind of blended Lemonade drink, because Natalia wants to go there?  Seriously, this actually keeps me awake at night.

So tonight, I'm trying a new tactic... Blog it out.  Here's what's on my mind people.
June 3: Natalia  and Brian leave for Tanzania. Pray for their safe trip, safe arrival, safe EVERYTHING in TZ.  And a miraculous answer to being able to call when the mood strikes.
June 4:  Sean's class play... will he remember his lines... will he speak clearly? 
June 5:  Neighborhood garage sale-- should I pull my shit together and sell some stuff for extra money or screw it and read all day?
June 5: Kyle's birthday party-- can I drop my kids off at the neighbors house, because I don't think I feel like chatting with everyone.  I mean, I love Jenny and I totally want to hang out, but as much as I've sobbed this week, can I stand it.  And if one more person says, "You look good, have you lost weight?"  I may cry more.
June6:  Boy Scouts event-- okay, do I really have to remind Steve and Sean to go?
June 7:  Sean's field trip-- Steve's got it on his calendar to meet them, so I don't have to remember this too, do I?  (nice that the teacher is letting him chaperon once they get to Ann Arbor, so he can go and Sean can get his wish to have a parent go on a field trip fulfilled).
June 7:  No baseball-- Dance recital dress rehearsal.  Probably a late night-- try not to stress about the costumes and the make up... but I'm seriously worried that I can get Sammie's soft hair to do what it's supposed to do (Princess Leia style buns... wth?).
June 9: Baseball at night-- Okay, I'm responsible for dance, can I JUST let Steve take them and get a night off... not to do laundry or dust, just to take a nap for a few hours between school and bedtime?
June 10:  Field Day-- uhm, can i attend this without blowing off work too much and will my kids get eaten alive by mosquitoes?  Seriously, I'm so bailing on baking cookies... it's just not in me.  And hot dogs... ech, not today!
June 11:  Last day of school-- definitely have to attend the awards ceremony-- not that my kids are getting any or anything but it's just something I have to do... there goes work.
June 12:  Again no baseball... Dance recital at 2 pm.  MIL & SIL spending the night-- oh shit do I have time to work and clean the house somewhere in here?
June 14/16 & 19: No school, no VBS, no boy scout camp (sorry, kids, Mommy's DUN!), but we've committed to baseball and that's ALL we're doing.  Oh and we're responsible for juice and snack on the 19th!
June 24:  Sean's surgery... adenoids & tonsils, possible tubes.  I'm worried about the needles (he hates needles), I'm worried about the surgery, the anesthesia, the post-op recovery... oh and my favorite NURSE will be in TZ, but I'm hoping she'll consult via e-mail or something.  Steve's off and MIL is watching Sammie for the day.  My parents will be in VA and bringing the cousins up for  a visit.
Theoretically, here's where I breathe a sigh of relief, but as mentioned, the cousins are coming for a visit and my Mom likes to pack in a lot of FUN and bonding, instead of just chillaxing.  So we'll see how that works out with Sean recovering, Sammie going insane from boredom, Steve home and me possibly taking a nap in here somewhere.... all while working from home and maintaining (exceeding?) my minimum work hours and having work coming (which it ebbs and flows without my ability to control it).
For my sanity's sake, I'm not even going into the big sis & hubbie  coming for the fourth, Steve's fishing trip (over my birthday weekend), the camping trip/family reunion, Sean's birthday, our anniversary... all coming up in July. Well, that's the highlights of July I guess.

I know, I know... all moms are busy... I just feel like a hamster on a wheel right now... only theoretically, the hamster is running and managing the speed of the wheel themselves.  Isn't it all supposed to slow DOWN in the summer?  Where are those lazy days?  Oh and at what point did I sneak in a call to my gal pals just to chat about their lives without sounding like a stressed out lunatic?

Oh, and note to self, if Sammie dances in the fall-- I'm so not having classes on Monday EVER again... it's just too much at the beginning of the week. [Dear Mrs. Ladwig, please do me the kind honor of scheduling an Intro Ballet class at 4 pm on Thursdays and reserve a spot for Sammie... better yet, make it 4:30! PS, I wish i could keep my little boy dancing, but he's done for now... maybe we can convince him to come back in a few years for football or baseball conditioning... any chance you'll consider Sports Conditioning for Athletes?  He might do it if wasn't called "ballet." I know, I know... silly question! PPS... have I told  you lately, even though I'm in pre-recital panic, that I love Academy of the Arts! Love, (not) the only Nut ]