Signs of the Apocalypse... probably not!

I'm trying not to be frustrated and pessimistic right now...
I think I'm failing miserably.

I tried to go 3 weeks between B12 shots... and the results aren't so fantastic. You see, I feel cruddy... my calf muscles hurt, my stomach feels like I just got off a roller coaster, my appetite is gone overnight.... Yes, I went to the Dr and they are doing bloodwork again.  Here's hoping it shows something consistent... because I'm confused.  I don't want to feel crummy... and there's another kink in the works (and this may be considered TMI so uh, sorry).  I've discovered I start horrendous nightsweats 3 days before, during and I dunno how long after my period.  This could be early menopause or it could be related to the B12. 

I'm also feeling a little suspicious... like my NP had some insightful comment... she asked how my leg issues were.  Without giving a full medical history... in Dec of 2009, I was put on neurontin by a neurologist because of restless leg like sypmtoms in  both legs, with worse symptoms in my left leg.  My NP commented that you can have neuropathy in your extremities as part of B12 deficiency.  Okay, so then WHAT!  WAIT!  Stop the presses... if my leg pain/neuropathy symptoms were related to B12 deficiency, then I've had issues since Dec of 2009, not June of 2010.  Uhm... hello, uh, is there a customer service rep for this body of mine that I can talk to and register a complaint? 

And now the worry has begun, because stupidly, I googled (okay, I binged-- go ahead and laugh Steve)... b12 deficiency, night sweats and neuropathy.  Okay, so I've WebMD confirmed that B12 and neuropathy can be linked... but B12 and nightsweats can be linked... if you have too much B12.  Whaaat?  So which is it... too much or too little because I feel like I did when we discovered it was too little but I'm sweating at night like it's too much. Yea, but the search results also revealed that I could have Lupus too.  That's a new one to the mix... and I'm realizing they took 3 vials of blood... I hate the blood draw so much (I hate hate hate needles) that I usually don't look.  And if I do look the sight of blood in a vial does not make me feel better.  I mean... it's supposed to be in me not sitting on a table.  WebMD, however, confirms there is no blood test for lupus, which means my NP is not testing me for lupus, right?!  OMG, I'm insane... well... I feel insane.

I am also feeling frustrated because I feel like I should schedule my annual femail "oil change" early... but the thought of bringing in ONE MORE DR into the loop is just... insane... I'm seriously beginning to feel like I have Munchhausen by Proxy, without the proxy and without the desire for attention.

Maybe I should chill... have a cuppa tea... read a book and wait for the B12 results call to come tomorrow and go from there.  Maybe, I should not talk to my mother before I go to the Dr's office.  Maybe I have to remember that today is today and not the end of the world.  And if it were the end of the world, I don't think I'd have a clue until suddenly we were all gone.  I'm pretty sure God whispers and mumbles to me (and I'm probably not really paying attention and he doesn't like to repeat himself)... but he does not send me Vegas style signs of what's to come. I could really use a Vegas Style sign of what's going on, though.

Be the building, Alex, be the building...